One Day I Will Be...
I know that one day I'll be my mother. I will be wishing my kids and grandkids lived closer. I will be looking back at my life and think I should have done this or that differently. I will reminisce about the time I did this or that, went here or there, etc., but I am not there yet.
Where I am is watching my Mother-In-Law spending the remainder of her life in a place that is not home. A place filled with strangers that care for her every need but it's not home. Pictures hang on her wall to remind her she has grandchildren. She has a Steeler's and WVU blanket on her bed to remind her she is a fan. She looks out the window by her bed to remind her of the seasons, day to night, and is the sun shining or is it raining outside. She sings hymns to remind herself she is Christian with a strong faith and that God will never forsake her but set by her bed until she falls asleep.
None of this is easy. My two best friends both went through this with their mother. They watched the woman who raised them, comforted them, healed their hurt, and saw their dreams come true leave them slowly. Their memories finally become distant and words stopped. They looked at them with a loving eyes but their name was no longer spoken.
Always be thankful for the moments you have with your mother because one day she will be gone and you will be left with memories and a whole in your heart she will only fill.
I love you mama.
All My Love,
Rae 💗
Where I am is watching my Mother-In-Law spending the remainder of her life in a place that is not home. A place filled with strangers that care for her every need but it's not home. Pictures hang on her wall to remind her she has grandchildren. She has a Steeler's and WVU blanket on her bed to remind her she is a fan. She looks out the window by her bed to remind her of the seasons, day to night, and is the sun shining or is it raining outside. She sings hymns to remind herself she is Christian with a strong faith and that God will never forsake her but set by her bed until she falls asleep.
None of this is easy. My two best friends both went through this with their mother. They watched the woman who raised them, comforted them, healed their hurt, and saw their dreams come true leave them slowly. Their memories finally become distant and words stopped. They looked at them with a loving eyes but their name was no longer spoken.
Always be thankful for the moments you have with your mother because one day she will be gone and you will be left with memories and a whole in your heart she will only fill.
I love you mama.
All My Love,
Rae 💗
How truthful and heartbreaking....I walked that walk and it was so hard to watch my mom deteriorate for 18 months in memory care. I miss her so much every day but she is heaven with her mind working again and living without any pain or sadness.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for the courage you showed. When I get discouraged I think of you and Nancy and how brave you were. You both are a blessing to me.
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