Unfiltered, Honest, and Loving Times of A Woman and her CRAZY, but Happy Life!!!

Have you ever met someone that you felt you connected with but they didn't connect back with you?  I mean at first, it seemed like they did until something changed.  You never could put your finger on it but none the less it changed. Well, it happened to me.  After months of beating myself up over what I may have done wrong to change the situation, I realized I had done nothing wrong.  I was still me but somehow it didn't mesh with who they were. I guess this short blog is writing to tell the world don't change for anyone.  Unless you have a characteristic that is harmful to society, others or yourself, DON'T CHANGE!!!!!  People will come around and realize your value in their life or they won't.  It's their problem, not yours.  Just keep being awesome!!!

Social Media, don't you just love it?  Posting your entire life in a couple of sentences or a picture of your best family moments.  Never seems to be a dull moment for some people however once it's there it is there.  People half the time can't remember what they had for breakfast yesterday but post "social media"  and it is talked about for days and if you are lucky weeks.  Then there are the occasional posts that you wish you never saw.  I mean is not even about being confident (some show more then they should), but to me, it is showing lack of respect for yourself.  How is this going to get you to the next level in your life?  Women want to be viewed as strong, respected, intelligent individuals who still fight every day for equality (unfortunately, no offense to my men, it is still a man's world).  Of course not because all men think this way, but it's just the way society still views women as a whole.  So, when I a see a woman of ...

This February 14th brings many old and new emotions.  It would have been my BFF's mother's (fondly known has Grand Jan) 83rd birthday.  I remember her favorite cake was "Red Velvet" and she was celebrated in style.  Janice was one amazing lady and I was blessed to have her in my life.  Also, 20 years ago I took out an ad in the Washington Post that read, "Katrina, will you Be Our Valentine?  Welcome to your new family.  We love you."  I still have that ad tucked in my bible. (Katina is our goddaughter and the reason we have our Jeffrey.  Another story for another day). This year is a different type of love.  The love of a child you are blessed to have in your life. Alyssa is the type of young lady who smiles and fills the room with sunshine.   She appreciates the "little things" like a Valentine's Day card with kittens and a box of chocolates that has a sweet kitten on the front.  "I am going to save this", she says and smi...

Many of you know that our son is adopted.  I still remember the painstaking moments of waiting for the call saying that a mistake had been made and that he would not be coming home to us.  Finally came the day when I held him in my arms and our family was complete,  however here we are again. Now fast forward 15 1/2 years later and my life changed again when 10 months ago then a 13-year-old, hazel eyed, brown hair, 5'7 cutie pie stole my heart.  She came into our family like a soft whisper.  She never asked for anything but to be loved and respected.  She spent many summer days with us, 4th of July, and then last August she came to live with our family.  As time went on her being here was like second nature.  She is not a guest she is family. Tomorrow we go to court to decide now where this beautiful 14-year-old girl where begin to find her forever home.  She has been thrown from pillar to post.  She has struggled with the security o...

It's the day after Christmas and I am not going to lie it had to be one of the worst Christmas Day's I have ever had.  We have all had those days when there are many family members and here comes DRAMA.  Knocking at the door and begging to be let inside.  So what do I do I let DRAMA come right on in and he (and notice I said HE) brings a friend called TRUST.  Yelp, here they come walking in like they didn't have anywhere to be except my life. I have learned today that TRUST takes time.  I mean real TRUST.  I don't care if it's a friend, spouse, or child.  I immediately feel a connection with someone and for some oddball reason, I just assume they feel the same way back.  WRONG (Drama is laughing can you hear him?).   However, by the time I realize what I have done I have given away the farm, the livestock, and half the house (literally).  I am thinking WTH have I done.  I am kicking myself for giving too much to fast and wond...

That is one thing about being part of this "fandom" you really don't know the people you interact with well until maybe years after you have met them.  For me I may interact with someone everyday or a few times a month, but I only see them maybe a few times a year at a Con.  While at the Con your time is spent at panels, waiting in lines for Photo Ops, and Autographs.  Very rarely is there any quality time spent getting to know the other people you have met over Social Media.  Sure you may try to catch them during down time, plan a dinner, or a drink, but there are many moving parts. Then I have been blessed with people I consider some of my closest friends.  Not really because of our mutual love for Lana but because I have found that their hearts are most similar to mine.  They care about the things I feel passionate about or the causes and challenges that face our world seem to be the forefront of their minds as well.  They are the friends you coul...

I know that one day I'll be my mother.  I will be wishing my kids and grandkids lived closer.  I will be looking back at my life and think I should have done this or that differently.  I will reminisce about the time I did this or that, went here or there, etc., but I am not there yet. Where I am is watching my Mother-In-Law spending the remainder of her life in a place that is not home.  A place filled with strangers that care for her every need but it's not home.  Pictures hang on her wall to remind her she has grandchildren.  She has a Steeler's and WVU blanket on her bed to remind her she is a fan.  She looks out the window by her bed to remind her of the seasons, day to night, and is the sun shining or is it raining outside.  She sings hymns to remind herself she is Christian with a strong faith and that God will never forsake her but set by her bed until she falls asleep. None of this is easy.  My two best friends both went through ...